Last weekend I finally watched the movie I Don't Know How She Does It. It was almost scary how much I can relate to this movie. It made me really think about all that I juggle and I wanted to write a post about it.
Lately I have begun to really feel accomplished and in a groove as a work outside the home Mommy. I had my annual review at work a few weeks ago and it made it was clear to me that it has finally all come together and that I have a hold of it all. It has taken 16 months since I went back to work, but I finally think I've got this now! I feel as though the Lord has blessed me with two very rewarding full time jobs. I work 8:30-5:00 Monday through Friday seeing miracles in action as I watch trauma surgeons literally save lives as a registered nurse working beside two awesome trauma surgeons at a busy level one trauma center and I work 24/7 (even while I'm working my other job) as a Mommy of a very busy, but sweet toddler boy. I love that I have a job outside the home where I get to have adult interaction, keep a sense of self worth, and get to come home to a baby that is so excited to see me as soon as I walk in the door.
Don't get me wrong, yes there are days I'd love to stay at home and not have to spend so much time at night or on the weekends running errands, doing laundry, or just stay at home, but overall I love having two full time jobs. I have 100% full respect for those that are SAHMs, but it isn't for me. I hate to admit this, but when it was time to go back to work at the end of maternity leave, I was ready. I was ready to get on a routine, have an adult conversation and for Nicholas to be able to be with other children during the day and learn much more than I could ever teach him at home. I couldn't keep myself on a routine if I were at home, I wouldn't have the I love how accomplished I feel at the end of the day that I can keep our household afloat and on a strict schedule, dinner on the table, manage the schedule of two very busy trauma surgeons, and manage the care their patients and my child loves me just the same as if he had been at home all day with me.
Nicholas loves "school" and being with his friends. In the morning when it is time to leave we tell him it's time to go to school and he literally yells "YAY" and runs to the door. He happily walks down the hall to his class and barely even tells me bye anymore. I'm ok with that. It's all worth it at the end of the day when he is so excited to see me and he jumps up to give me a big hug and a kiss.
With all of that being said, I LOVE being a Mommy. It is far and away my favorite "job", but it is so, so much more than that. I view motherhood as my true calling and what I was born to do. That is why I prayed so hard all of that time we were faced with infertility. I have gone from keeping our house and laundry impeccable to just getting by, and that is ok. All I want to do when I get home is love and cuddle with my sweet boy! I feel like the Lord has blessed me more than I could have ever imagined by giving me the two best "jobs" ever!
