Thursday, January 15, 2009
Thankful Thursday With A Twist
UPDATE: I want to thank you all for the sweet comments today. All of my life I have had friends put in my life by God that seemed perfect for me at that time. Now, God has put each and every one of you in my life for the reason that you are all so caring and encouraging. Those of you who are also waiting on a child, we can do this together. When I feel alone and like no one understands, I know that I can always go to my blog list and find someone who does. I have absolute FAITH that one day we will all be praises on the prayer blog together!
I realized that with the holidays and everything going on in our lives lately, I have neglected (AGAIN) to do Thankful Thursdays and Wonderful Wednesdays! Oops! Well, here we go again!
I have not posted about our latest news because Michael and I were waiting to tell anyone, but five days before Christmas we got a wonderful Christmas surprise that we were pregnant! Everything seemed to be going great, my beta level was rising fast and higher than normal, I was tired and sick and feeling completely pregnant. Last Wednesday we had our first appointment and our new wonderful dr could only find a sac, no baby. AGAIN, just like before. I was devastated and spent a lot of the last week questioning why. He wanted to see my back in 10 days for a repeat scan, but I was not going to wait that long again, so he compromised with Monday with labs. If the u/s had not changed and the lab work was where it needed to be, then we would move on with a D&C or a medication that would work as a D&C at home. Monday showed us what we needed to know and I elected to take the medication yesterday morning. It seemed to work, but not as much as it is supposed to (according to all of my research and knowledge of the drug from nursing school), so I just spoke with him and I am to stay home again today and if nothing else has happened by tomorrow morning, come back in for another u/s to make sure everything is gone. Now, I am sure you are asking why in the world would I post this on Thankful Thursday???? Well, it is because I am very Thankful for my fabulous, wonderful OB that I love more everytime I talk to him, I am Thankful that yes, I can get pregnant, although there is something going on that keeps my eggs from developing into healthy babies. The reason why my OB is so fabulously wonderful is because he has promised me, everytime I've been in the office and on the phone that he WILL find out what is going on and do his very best to fix it. The next step for me is to undergo some testing of my anatomy. For those of you who remember from my gallbladder surgery, I have a rare condition that places my abdominal organs on opposite sides of where they are supposed to be. This can also effect your uterus by causing a uterine septum. This can be easily repaired, but we just have to find out if that is the problem. We will also undergo a lot of lab work.
So, anyway, please pray today that this process is done and that I will not need a D&C. If I have to have one that is just more scar tissue and trauma to my uterus that will make having a baby more difficult. Especially if I do have a uterine abnormality. Please pray for my OB that he will make the right decisions and be able to diagnose what is going on with us. And also, please pray for us that we continue to have strength and see this is just another obstacle that will lead to a healthy baby soon.