Friday, July 17, 2009

One Week And Counting!

I just realized that we are only ONE week away from our consultation with my OBGYN! I am so excited, but at the same time nervous, scared, and anxious. I feel like we have been through so much over the past 20 months that I am worried that something else is going to go wrong. Lately I've had this huge fear of obviously never being pregnant again, another miscarriage, and for some reason a fear of my child having downs or some other disability. I know that it is normal to be worried about these things, but in the back of my mind I am terrified because both of my miscarriages were a type that can be linked to chromosomal abnormalities. After all that we've been through to get pregnant, I really don't think that I could handle that. (I would LOVE a child no matter what, but I don't know that I have what it takes to do it).

Anyway, on that note, I am compiling a list of questions, concerns, and what we would like our next step to be. (which right now we are leaning towards IUI in a cycle or two) I'm just ready to move this thing along! Our infertility is so much a part of who we are, but I am so afraid if things don't change soon it may become part of our identity. However, I think a lot of the frustrating, angry phase is behind me (at least for now). I see where it has made us a better couple and definitely made me stronger.

Please pray for us over the next week and pray for our dr that he has the knowledge and wisdom that we are looking for to guide us onto the next step.

10 comments:

Ashley said...

Oh, gosh I def. know how you feel! I will be praying!

Jenna said...

If I rememer correctly you have MTHFR, right? I have the same problem along with PAI-1 and I was prescribed 1 Metanx(Rx) a day along with 1 Low Dose Aspirin, 4000 mcg Folic Acid, and Prenatal Vitamin. After 3 monthsof all those meds, I was pregnant with no problems, maybe mention Metanx to our dr. I will be praying for ya!

Kendra said...

Praying!!

Amanda said...

I actually have Factor V Leiden.

Elizabeth said...

Remember this: God has not given us a spirt of fear, but of peace, love and a sound mind. Don't worry and turn it all over to Him. I'll be praying for ya!

Sarah said...

The season of waiting is so hard, isn't it? The thing I admire about you is that you are taking a step forward, despite the fear. Awesome! I will be praying that you will continue to be strong and steadfast in faith,even in the scary times.

Lianna Knight said...

Praying for you Amanda!!! We are going to do the same thing when we return from our vacation!!!

Molly said...

I'm excited for you and sending lots of good thoughts your way.

Jennifer said...

Hoping and praying for great news at your appointment!

Lauren Kelly said...

Praying and thinking of ya'll :)