I did go out and run some errands yesterday. First, I went to mail a letter to try to postpone jury duty for at least three months, considering I am not currently living in my state and that I do not feel "emotionally equipped". Given all that has gone on and the fact that my HSG is the same day as my jury duty, I KNOW I could not give all that I should to serving as a juror. I don't mind doing it, but right now, I just don't think I am the best person for the job. Second, I went to buy a cute pair of black dress shoes for Valentine's Day! :-)
Today we went by the house so Michael could see all of our pretty sheetrock (seriously, until your ceilings are caving in and there are no walls, you have never seen such a pretty site!). Here is how our house looks after week 4 of the rebuild! This weeks agenda is to finish the sheetrock to be ready for paint by next Monday!!!!!
Today has been a hard day. Sometimes I just have to remind myself of Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Days like today I wonder, why me, why do I not have a beautiful baby and why am I not sitting on my couch in MY living room with that baby? I HATE asking why, I know I am not supposed to, but there are days it is so hard. It is days like today that I wonder when it will ever be my turn. Will I ever just spend the day admiring my beautiful baby in our pjs on the couch? I am sad tonight and praying for all of us in this journey together. I know there are so many of us out there. We WILL have our baby one day, it just may not be on OUR time, but it WILL be on HIS time!