Saturday, February 28, 2009
I also got my ivory canisters today! Thanks Mom!!!! I decided that I couldn't beat the fact that they were regularly as expensive as the red ones, but on a HUGE sale, so I went ahead and got them. I LOVE them! I can't wait to see them on my pretty countertops!
It has been a gloomy, rainy day here. Michael and I will probably spend the night eating in, but may go out for a little while just to get out of the house (it gets a little old sitting in our one room every night!). Have a great rest of the weekend!
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
No, they aren't red, but they would still look good with my dark granite and brown walls, but what about the fact I have a red stand mixer and red/brown french chef decor? What do my blog girls think? Yes or No?
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Next, for more important business! I have to sadly admit that I did not watch the bachelor last night. GASP! I know, it is a reality tv sin, but I had to pick Michael up from work (long story) and by the time I got home it was late. So, here is the deal, I need you girls to fill me in! Tell me what happened. I heard at work that it looks like Jillian will be the next bachelorette. What do you think? Also, it is less than one week now until the finale, so go ahead and make your guess as to who will win!
Hope everyone had a good day! I am having some pain tonight so I am going to get in bed and try to get some sleep before a busy day tomorrow.
Monday, February 23, 2009
On our way home last night we stopped in at the house for this weeks update. The sheetrock is finished and now they are starting the trim! It won't be too long once they start painting next week! Here is a pic from yesterday.
Thanks for all the comments on the canisters! I did however, decide to pass up the $150 set, (yes, you read that right) and go with these economy canisters! :-) I can still dream though!
I forgot to tell you all last week, but I did get excused from jury duty! YAY!!!! Now, I am all set for my procedure on March 4, one week from Wednesday!!!!! So, hopefully we will start getting some answers on why we are having so much trouble.
Today, I have had a crazy busy day. Hope the rest of the week calms down a little bit! Ha! Hope everyone else is having a great day!
Friday, February 20, 2009
Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate...
and the Master so gently said,"Wait."
"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!"
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.
My future and all to which I relate
hangs in the balance and you tell me to Wait?
"I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign.
Or even a 'no,' to which I'll resign.
You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply.
Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
as my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
and grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting...for what?"
He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine...
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.
I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.
You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
you'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
when darkness and silence are all you can see.
You'd never experience the fullness of love
when the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.
The glow of My comfort late into the night,
the faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.
You'd never know should your pain quickly flee,
what it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
but oh, the loss if I lost what I'm doing in you.
So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
that the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still "WAIT".
- Russell Kelfer
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Feb. 23-27 interior trim
Mar. 2-6 paint 3 days, then set cabinets, hardwood, final trim
Mar. 9-14 plumbing, light fixtures, H/Vac
Mar 16-20 carpet, final painting, clean"
I did not make it to the gym this morning. Cycle 12 is here and that is ok, we are not currently TTC since we are waiting on our tests and trying to get back in the house. We are also going to back off for summer. I think we are going to take a big trip and enjoy our time on the boat and if it happens, great, if not, we'll get aggressive again in the fall. However, I feel terrible today. My endometriosis has flared up and I am in a lot of pain. I was up almost all night hanging out with my heating pad in the recliner. After today or tomorrow, it will go away and I will feel better. Hopefully I'll make it tomorrow morning.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Anyway! This week was my favorite episode this season! I really did like all three, but as the episode went on, I really felt like Molly would be the one going home. I was really surprised in the end.
What did everyone think about the dates? I thought it was tacky for Jillian to keep asking him if he could handle her all night! Again girls, lets at least TRY to look classy! I wasn't too sure about Molly giving him a list of questions and I don't think she should have given him the fantasy card. Come on, you know you are going to get one, everyone does! I do have to say yay for her for bungee jumping. I would have been cut right then and there! That is one activity I CANNOT do! I can't even ride a roller coaster I am so afraid of heights! Ha! I am still LOVING Melissa. I did feel like she was trying to hard with trying to explain what happened with her hometown date.
So, what is everyone's thoughts? What are your predictions now? I am still going with Melissa.
DIET UPDATE: I made it to the gym AGAIN!!!!!!!! Woohoo! Two days in a row!!!!!
Monday, February 16, 2009
I also went to my primary care doctor today for the first time in over two years (oops!). My OB wanted me to go to get a physical just so we can say that I have done that. I am also going back on some medication that I haven't taken in awhile due to TTC that should help me lose a little weight (it always suppressed my appetite).
After I saw the Dr, I went to my house and much to my surprise, all the walls had been taped up and mudded to finish the sheetrock!!!!! I am praying that it won't be long now!!!!!
Hope everyone had an equally good day. I am in my pjs and ready to watch the Bachelor!
Sunday, February 15, 2009
I did go out and run some errands yesterday. First, I went to mail a letter to try to postpone jury duty for at least three months, considering I am not currently living in my state and that I do not feel "emotionally equipped". Given all that has gone on and the fact that my HSG is the same day as my jury duty, I KNOW I could not give all that I should to serving as a juror. I don't mind doing it, but right now, I just don't think I am the best person for the job. Second, I went to buy a cute pair of black dress shoes for Valentine's Day! :-)
Today we went by the house so Michael could see all of our pretty sheetrock (seriously, until your ceilings are caving in and there are no walls, you have never seen such a pretty site!). Here is how our house looks after week 4 of the rebuild! This weeks agenda is to finish the sheetrock to be ready for paint by next Monday!!!!!
Today has been a hard day. Sometimes I just have to remind myself of Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Days like today I wonder, why me, why do I not have a beautiful baby and why am I not sitting on my couch in MY living room with that baby? I HATE asking why, I know I am not supposed to, but there are days it is so hard. It is days like today that I wonder when it will ever be my turn. Will I ever just spend the day admiring my beautiful baby in our pjs on the couch? I am sad tonight and praying for all of us in this journey together. I know there are so many of us out there. We WILL have our baby one day, it just may not be on OUR time, but it WILL be on HIS time!
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
When I saw this picture I realized where I need to be and FAST...the gym! So, my plans are to go at 6:00 tomorrow morning. Boating season will be here before I know it! AHHHHHH!!!!!
Today also marks the two month anniversary of our fire. Everyday things are getting closer and closer to being done. I am starting to get really excited to see everything complete and to have our house just the way we want it. If only I could chose my chocolate brown and light blue color. We would be ready! My OCD has kicked in so bad with paint. I know exactly what I want, but afraid that it won't look like it does on the card when it is on the wall. STRESS!!!! :-)
WEDNESDAY AM UPDATE: I made it! I went to the gym this morning at 6am!!!! I ran on the elliptical for 30 minutes. Now, will this continue tomorrow? Stay tuned!
I love the home visit episodes. They are my favorite other than the fantasy date one (which appears to FINALLY be the DeAnna episode). My favorite family was Molly's family (other than the crazy hat box thing). I still can't believe the whole dead dove thing at Naomi's family. I knew she was going home, so I don't think that is why she went home, but it sure didn't help! Jillian's family was ok, but I think she will be the next one gone. I hate I missed Melissa's hometown visit, even though her parents weren't on there. I still LOVE her! However, from the previews, I think she better start opening up more!
Ok, what did you girls think? Who are you seeing as the final two and who do you think will be the winner? I still say Molly and Melissa, but it is a toss up right now as to who wins (although Melissa is still my favorite!).
Saturday, February 7, 2009
For our hardwood we chose a dark brown oak called java (similar to this):
We also went to the lighting store and finalized our selection there. It will all be similar to what we already had. No big changes there. For dinner we decided to try Sugar's Ribs downtown. YUM!!!! That is all that can be said to describe that place! If you live anywhere near Chattanooga and haven't tried it, run, don't walk, and go tonight!
Today I went to the paint store to have them mix a sample of the green that I am thinking about painting the living room, foyer, and hallway. In case you've ever wondered what a severly OCD person does when it is time to pick paint, this is it:
What do you think? You won't hurt my feelings, but I want input!
Here are the latest pics of our house!!!!
Can't wait for next weekend's update! There should be some sheetrock then!!!! :-)
Friday, February 6, 2009
Wednesday we got the best news we have had in a LONG time. The house will be ready at most in 5 weeks!!!!!! That is only 35 days!!!!!!!! However, since things are moving so fast, we have to hurry and select everything. So, this afternoon Michael and I are both leaving work at lunch to go look at granite, hardwood, and lighting. I am getting so excited! I can't wait to be back in my house, organized and decorate, and just sit on the patio! It won't be long now!!!! We will be going by the house today and I'll take some pictures. You won't believe how much has been done this week!
Yesterday we all got great news when Baby Harper went home after spending 20 days in NICU!!!!!!!!! I have never been so happy for a family as I was for them yesterday! I hope they are doing well today and that they had a good first night at home. :-)
This morning I went to my OB for my follow up. Everything is looking good and my HCG is back to zero, which is awesome because it took almost 6 weeks last time, so that is half the time! I love my OB more and more each time I see him. First, I never have to wait, and he seems to understand my situation. Today he said something that I have never had a dr tell me and it made me so happy to hear. He said that he knows that it is hard for me to deal with everyone around me having babies, coming in his office, or when someone asks about it. He takes so much time and really tries to understand how I feel. That is a lot more than I can say for my old OB, and she was a woman! Anyway, we are starting my workup on March 4 with an ultrasound with dye injected to check for any uterine problems. If that doesn't show anything, then we move onto genetic testing if I choose to do so. Yes, I will choose to do that. I am not comfortable trying again until we have a cause for all of this.
Be sure to check in tonight for pics of the house and maybe some pics of some of what we select this afternoon! Oh, and I am super excited because since it is Friday and I don't have patients today, I got to wear my super adorable purple ballet flats (my most favorite shoes!)!!!
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Sunday, February 1, 2009
1. I have situs inversus, meaning my internal organs are on the opposite side from where they are supposed to be. It is really cool until you have your gallbladder out and your boss, the surgeon has never done a left sided gallbladder! (Just kidding Dr. Smith!) :-)
2. I have always hated being an only child. It gets very lonely.
3. I have severe OCD. If you don't believe me, come to my office and see my lovely color coded call schedules!
4. My house has been struck by lightning and caught fire. How many people do you know who can say that?
5. I love having a clean house, but hate cleaning it. There is just too many other things to do.
Unfortunately, I still have to devote an entire Saturday to it twice a month.
6. I am becoming desperate for a baby. We've been trying to have one for almost a year and a half with two losses, it is not as easy as everyone tells you it will be.
7. On the same note number 6, I have the most spoiled dog ever. He is my baby and that is why he is so loved!
8. I have naturally curly hair, but it doesn't look good on me (in my opinion), so I flatiron it every day.
9. I was deathly afriad of dogs and cats until I was 9 and my parents brought home a cocker spaniel puppy for me. I instantly loved him and had him for 13 years.
10. My husband is my best friend and I can't imagine my life without him. (I love you!)
11. I love my job. I honestly believe I have the most fun job out there. I love the two surgeons I work for and my coworkers. They are the best and will do anything for you. (refer to number 1)
12. I am obsessed with decorating my house. I start buying Christmas decorations in August!
13. I always have my camera in my purse. I LOVE to document everything.
14. I have a very sad need to always please everyone around me. It tends to stress me out and when I do let someone down, I get upset.
15. I spent a year planning the best wedding I've ever been to, but now it is only a blur!
16. I miss my college friends. They helped define who I am and I never see them.
17. I have an addiction to Starbucks. I have a favorite for every season. Again, very sad!
18. I LOVE monograms and unique things.
19. I have always been told that I am a very positive person. I find that it is much easier to be happy and positive than sad. With infertility you cannot let yourself get down, you would never get back up.
20. I met my husband on a blind date! Trust your friends, go on blind dates! They work!
21. I could live on desserts! There isn't much in the way of sweets I don't like!
22. I love that my husband tries to make me happy and keep me going when I get down.
23. I miss the way my Nana used to be. Dementia is a terrible thing.
24. I never go anywhere without makeup. If you see me without makeup, know that I must feel terrible and be on the verge of death!
25. I was on tv when I was 1 day old! News Channel9 did a story on babies and chose me out of the nursery! It was my 15 minutes of fame! Ha!